No Longer A Hectic Homeschooler

I wonder if everyone goes through this:

Right now I just want to scream. I am sick of accepting changes from people. I am sick of sucking up to people whom I'm not really sure even like me. There have been so many things I have wanted to say, but know to keep my mouth shut. Over the past few months, I have closed many different chapters in my life. I've had to pick up the pieces and move on.

And when it rains, it can't just rain in my life. It just has to FLOOD.

I wanted to blog the morning of June 5th. That was one of the many days I cried. I don't even talk about most of the times I cry. Over the past year, I have cried myself to sleep more than I have "passed out" from exhaustion. June 5th was a little different form all of them.

I closed our last report cards at Explorer Academy. We actually spent four years at one school. Even though it wasn't really a school as anybody would normally think of it, I spent four years working with teachers and homeschooling my kids. I had Explorer Academy as a resource for the years I didn't have the cash for our own curriculum.

Giving up homeschooling was not something I wanted to do. I feel forced to by my new situation as a single mom. After five years at home, attempting to domesticate myself, this is the hardest challenge in my life. I spent five years at home with my kids, trying to support my husband. May of last year, he announced to me his intention to divorce.

I felt I was making progress in homeschooling. I was connecting with my kids in a way I had never been able to before. I was teaching and learning with them in a way I wish I had been able to as a kid. Closing report cards this year was a huge step for me. One of the doors in my life was now closed. Maybe someday, when Bogfoot and Beadgorl have kids of their own, they can reopen the door to the joys of homeschooling.

Tackle It Tuesday

I finally got around to putting progress binders together for the kids. They aren't bulging as much as they should. There should be much more history and science in there. Oh well, we'll have that ready for our consultation next month.

Frankly, this is the one part of homeschooling through a district sponsored coop I look the least forward to. For some reason, I have this horrible procrastinating urge to leave meeting prep for the very last minute. The whole concept of organizing all schoolwork into a presentable form draws all types of desire to put it off. Besides, there are plenty other chores for an ADHD hectic homeschooling mom to worry about. Suddenly, the laundry has to be completely pressed and put away. The kitchen must be cleaned. I can't sort out papers in the living room with all these dirty dishes in the kitchen. Mending must be done. I haven't done the mending in almost six months. But, I have an in office meeting tomorrow (which was actually today by the time I get it posted). I have all these other things to do before I can do anything in regards to presenting school work.

I'm using K12 this year. This should be fairly easy. Actually, it's much easier this year than it was last year to do all this. I don't have to write out each day's lesson plans. My days of worrying about getting behind or Bigfoot working too fast are over. Everything is numbered and named by subject. It's just that my ADHD, which, by the way, all moms have, gets distracted. This job ends up getting put off until the very last few hours.

But, it did get done. Now, all those papers I put categorized into binders can come out, get stuffed in a folder, placed in a box, and stashed in the basement. Why? So that when my kids grow up and have kids, this hectic homeschooling grandma of the future, can show off all their work.

Now do yourself a favor, and Tackle It Tuesday. Find more at 5minutesformom.